Today God stripped me, yet again.
Why do I deceive myself into thinking that I can do anything without God and without being firmly (none of this im sort of planted in him, God showed me I wasnt when the hard times came) planted in him? It's so annoying for me to think like this. God just continues to bring me back to this place reiterating that... TRULY WITHOUT ME YOU ARE NOTHING- and it's true without him I am unloving, unkind, irritable, uncaring, selfish, annoyed, ungrateful, mean, unsatisfied, depressed, I lack self control, care about the world and the list could go on. I guess the works of the flesh really are opposed to the works and fruit of the spirit- Galatians 5. But I know these things so why do I keep going around the same mountains- because I took my focus off you oh God. I have suppressed you in my life both consciously and subconsciously and I let the world in once again. Things that weren't important to me in Christ somehow have become important to me again. I stopped keeping the first things first, I have taken my eyes of you as as a result I haven't been praying over the last couple of weeks, I haven't been clinging onto your word, my quiet time has suffered and as a result my relationship with you has also suffered.
God I miss you SO much.
I miss the person that I am in you.
I broke down but he brought me to...Psalm 91:1 (AMP)-
He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall remain stable and fixed under the shadow of the Almighty.
Nai...don't ever move from that secret place again- never let a day go by. Be in the secret place of the most high and do not be deceived by the veneer of this world.
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.- Romans 12:2 (NIV)
Lots of love xxx
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